I figured I would write my birthday post now before going to work rather than trying to make it tomorrow when I will be busy.
When i was a little girl, I never dreamed big enough. I lived in my realist world that I only allowed tv/movies/theatre to touch with any ounce of fantasy. Maybe this is what happens when you grow up without a parent. In some ways without both parents because the one that is left is working enough for two, but I digress…
Years later and I barely watch tv or go to the movies (I still love theatre) but I dream bigger now and then I search to make it a reality. I can remember at an early age looking forward to my 30s. Thinking they would be the best years. As someone that matured faster than most kids, I think I just thought finally by 30 people wouldn’t question me as much.
Here I sit, about to go to my part time job which I am struggling with mentally.. I mean i LOVE the company, but working 5x a day for PT work and bringing home like $200… it kinda wears on me mentally. I am getting through it.
Tonight, I will get home and put on my size Large birthday dress and go out to a nice Greek dinner at Cat Cora’s restaurant (first time!) with a man that I see a future with.. and I will let the stars wrap around me and find so much peace that these years on this earth have made me the woman I am today and I love her.
Today, I dream bigger than when I was a little girl. I encourage everyone to dream bigger. Also, I can say that I am truly grateful everyday for the relationships I have in my life. The one with my Creator, myself, and my friends and family… even the ones I have with complete strangers.
Smiles, laughs, hugs, kind words… this is what we should all spread each day. I thought i would be someone else at 30, but I am so much better than that person. I cannot wait to see what the next 30 years on this earth teach me and what blessings are ahead for me! I thank you all for reading my stories, supporting, and encouraging me as well…some of you have been doing it for two and half years!
I will post pictures soon as well- I was surprised by what I saw.. and I will def take date night pictures tonight!! I wanna show you my dress! XOXOX- Cortney