Some days I dream… i let go and think about what life was without you… what life would be without you again. I wonder where I would be, what I would still be searching for.. what I wouldn’t know existed yet.. I usually end up with a smile on my face at this point because I don’t have to think about it. I hear the dating website commercials and I think of the freedom I have that I am not still searching for something that exists in my life already.. and how you are so perfect for me. There are these little moments and they are hard to explain.. the words seem that they have been misused before.. but there are these moments where you just seem to fulfill a need of mine without knowing it. You make my ocean calm. I guess this is what being in love is like. Heaven knows it has been some time since I have even thought about what that really even means and this time I want it to mean what it should.
Every day I want to say thank you, that I am grateful that I don’t have to live in this world without you for today. That you sober my drunken thoughts that have been brought on by drinking too many previous lies.
Some days I dream and in the end it just makes me fall harder for you.
Thank you and a million kisses from my lips to yours.