What if surgery doesn’t work? Why didn’t I make that my ONE question to the surgeon… has anyone every not lost even when following all the rules? Will I be that ONE?
I need to take my family up on a place to stay after. I am not going to want to be alone. I do still need my mom.
I know what will happen if i do not get this surgery. I have nothing but a life of health issues awaiting me. I have rides not ridden, laughs not laughed, smiles not smiled, and a better me not experienced.
So scared that if God made me this way, that I am just supposed to be. This negates every thought of self-improvement then.
Sad that I trust God and am still scared.
Worried about the feelings that will come after. The thoughts. Losing weight doesn’t solve my problems.. what are my problems?
I know that in my heart I really want a husband and a family, but I am trying so hard to make peace with not having those. Just because I lose weight does not mean that some husband comes with the package, but it does mean a happier me. Right? A me that can do more on my own.
I think I need a break from social media.
Has anyone every lose weight and got more depressed? How do I stop that? I do not hear anything about regret aside from not doing it sooner. Is this just cold feet thoughts? I want this to work so badly but even though I have a surgery date it is hard for me to believe it is still going to happen.
I should go see my counselor again before surgery.